Chapter #5: Unknown

For the last couple of days I have been meditating and thinking about the days ahead and the opportunity to go on summer project to Juneau, Alaska. Feels like I'm taking a big risk at something that could end up changing how I look at things...

As the school year winds down, and all of the project, essays, and tests pile up which equals no life for most people that I know. As I get ready to finish the school year on a positive note, I have quite a task ahead of me...heading off to a place that I never been before or seen. Slowly but surely, I'll be preparing for Juneau and what it has for me up there. The way I look at it, I feel like I'm leaving the county for some reason. I know, you are still in the Untied States but I will be going through most of Canada to get there. Never seen Canada before and top it I haven't seen a lot of states from the west side for the exception of Colorado.

A few people have ask me, "well you could have done something else like going back to the south or choosing another state because Alaska is too cold. That's the first impression that I get when I hear Alaska being mention. Oh wow, that place must really cold with a couple hundreds of people up there. When I was younger I thought of Alaska as having all of this snow and not beautiful weather. Some friends that I have talk to over the past few weeks say that is really nice in that part of the state. and I have seen quite a few pictures of the place and it's really nice. And having the opportunity to go up there for pretty much most of the summer it is still mind-blowing.

I have been in reflecting mode of a few days now, and it's funny how God works everything out in a sense that you doing even plan the entire thing by yourself. Slowly leading up to the day I have to leave to head out to Alaska, I'm excited but for right now I'm more intimated than excited...if I had a short meter between two I would say intimated. Why, a lot of things come into play (I won't mention them all) I had a few reasons that I will address that I'm worried about

#1: How is the trip going to turnout especially being long as it is though I have been on long road trips before like say Florida to Kansas

#2: I will be joining other students that I really don't even know on this trip and I will be with them all summer

The fear of the unknown always has me worried at some point. But there is a time where you have to hold you head up high and go after it. I remember when I had to memorize Psalm 23 and to this day I still remember the entire chapter. One verse that I have pick out is really good "even though I walk through the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for you are with me: your rod and staff, comfort me." Psalm 23:4 I usually think about for a while. Sometimes i think something bad is about  to happen to me, but I know that God is always watching and I'm learning everyday to trust God. It's not really up to me. God always will have a plan for you no matter what the situation is. Raising money for trip is nerve-racking but you have to go into the right state of mind and be on the positive and not so much on the negative side.

The focus for me, to stay on tasks and do what I need to do to finish the school year, then sets my sights on this summer 's journey to Juneau. One thing that I will keep doing is improving my relationship with him in prayer and reading the bible. I know that's one of the things that I started doing a while back, so that's what I need to keep doing. In almost less than one month I be making the trip to Alaska! Who would've though of that.